It’s really hard to break old habits. I am such a big “worry wart”!
I worry about what we will do for the holidays when it’s only June. I worry about where my kids will go to college and they are only in 2nd & 3rd grade.
I try really hard not to “sweat the small stuff.” I try really hard not to worry about the things I can’t change. I try really hard not get stressed out over the future.
The words “I try” are the operative words. TRY. I’m not successful with it at all.
All this worrying has now caused me to develop anxiety. I shake, my heart races, and I find it hard to breathe. Then I worry about the anxiety. It’s really a vicious cycle.
As a matter of fact, just writing this down is causing my heart to race. It’s so frustrating.
The one thing that worries me the most…what people think of me. I’m always worried that someone is mad at me, doesn’t like me, or doesn’t think I’m good enough. I know I’m not supposed to worry about those things. I know that it really shouldn’t matter what other people think of me, but I just can’t help it. I know I build things up in my head bigger than what is really happening.
Funny thing is KNOWING something and actually DOING it are complete opposites to me.
I really hate that I work myself up. I really hate that my heart races and my palms sweat. I really hate that I find it hard to breathe.
I really hate this feeling.